31 July 2004, 5:08 pm Berlin
hi angelique, hi liesbeth,
sorry to hear that l. doesn't feel well today. we will see what happens
to me tomorrow, but i guess my body can handle olive oil. last night
i drunk more
than the day before but still not the whole amount. but i believe i can raise
the amount every evening. to eat smoked pigeon will be challenging – since
i am vegetarian. fish i usually eat only maybe twice a year.
it’s very interesting what you say about aesthetic terrorism – specially
your experiences of looking-like-an-army-of-2. two that don't want to look different
in clothes, hair and style. it might be that we can handle certain differences
better then certain similarities. your appearance seems to confuse or irritate
the western dogma of being an individual, of showing –an identity. maybe
i am overinterpreting, but it’s as if you would detest participation in
the society and questioning it at its core – i guess that's terrorism – in
the way some people understood it – at least since the 1970s. but you are
right, the term has a strange history. on the one hand terrorism is a bourgeois
construction (with conservative strategic qualities) which recodes resistance
into terrorism, a linguistic recoding or reformulation, to link (emancipating)
struggle to horror, to scare, to the fear of an attack by some undifferentiated
violence, a violence “that could hit anyone” (i think although the
Nazis used the term to describe the French résistance partisans). but
this isn't guerrilla tactics that are (mostly) clear in their direction, as well
as in their implementation and execution. but on the other hand it is a notion
full of fictions, and today with 9/11 it is in sit is shifting or it is in transition
again, in a new stage of being newly defined. and do we already participate in
this transition just by saying that terrorism is not resistance? i will try to
ask a former guerrilla i just got to know how he would describe it – but
i believe most guerrilla activists don’t want to be called terrorists.
what was the letter from iraq about that you’ve got?
i hope l. feels better tonight,
xox and until tomorrow,
31 July 2004, 12:57 pm Amsterdam
the good thing about drinking so much water is also to prevent that you
from getting a hangover in the morning. L. sometimes has a headache in
if she has not drunk enough. Yesterday we went to a restaurant and then you
able to ask for water all the time. So in the evening we drank 500 ml less
water per person, which together with the oily food gave me (L.) problems with
(I can't handle too much olive oil apparently, A. doesn't have that problem,
also some food makes me feel sick and not A.; like artichoke and squid). Yesterday
we had that in our dish (we didn't know there would be artichoke and squid
in it). So I feel not that well today! But I am rather used to that feeling
in the past I had almost each morning this problem. A. never feels sick! Anyway
... although when I feel sick I have to go on eating because we have to eat
the same and beside, if I go resting in my bed the feeling gets worse.
We drank also one more glass wine (150 ml) than yesterday so 6 in total. All
the rest was the same.
For dinner we shared a menu, which was a starter, a meal and dessert.
The starter was small so for you 1/2 portion salad: 5 leaves (!) of salad with
3 pieces of smoked pigeon (15 gram) with a framboise dressing and a 1/2 slice
of bread and 1 little knife of butter.
The meal was 1/2 piece filled squid with black ink (ink of the squid), rice,
1 piece (15 grams) grilled tuna, 1 sliced grilled pepper, 1/2 tomato, 5 olives
all this together with a lot of olive oil.
Then dessert was 80 grams of mixed cheese (brie, camembert and comte).
We went home and drank the coffee with chocolate toffees and cola.
The term aesthetic terrorism came up when we were asked in an interview a few
years a go why we saw ourselves as terrorists. This was because of the fact
that whenever A. and I went travelling together, we were always picked out
police for stop-and-search control. Apparently, we looked very suspicious:
both very skinny, dark hair, clothes (jeans and always black). The funny thing
that if we travelled seperately that never happened! It was like when we were
together we scared people by looking like an army of 2, and we felt almost
as if we had power like this, which apparently people could feel. But we also
very mistreated and angry at all the prejudices. It challenged us to be irritating,
to irritate the world even more. Immediately the question came up: how do you
do that as an artist? To show that you disapprove of the world around you.
We wanted to work like terrorists – to secretly sneak into the art world to
get our message across by irritating people. But if you use the term “terrorists” people
associate immediately that with violent attacks and murder, which we of course
don’t want. It was more to point out the way of working: infecting people
with your way of thinking and ideas and ideals, to brainwash people with your
ideas of what is a beautiful or a perfect body. Than the interviewer said: “so
it is in fact more an aesthetic terrorism”. Later we used the term ourselves
to avoid people thinking we meant violent attacks (after we got a letter from
someone from Iraq we did not feel safe anymore and people warned us to be careful).
Good luck for today and speak to you tomorrow!