30 July 2004, 7:46 pm Berlin
hi angelique, hi liesbeth,
i forgot to tell you: my weight is 50 kilo and my height is 164 cm. i
enjoyed the day yesterday and today – there were only two things i didn't do: i
only drank half the amount of wine – because i was drunk after two glasses
and second: i had espresso with caffeine. but i hope i will do better tonight.
a really good thing is the water, i am already “addicted” to it.
i feel thirsty when i don’t drink – plus it was hot here today,
spinoza says that the mind has the special ability to refer to something, it
has its own organization on the level of the understanding. it is not only
controlled by the outside, it holds an inner order, which enables it to invent
a new notion, a term, a concept. spinoza writes: if, for example you aren't
able to forget that somebody has a certain anger against you, you can at least
that this person is not here right now and then you are able to do something
else and you can forget this certain reason of angst. this is supposed to be
an example of the freedom of the mind – to sneak out from the chain of
causes. i guess he took this example, because he was hated by many people during
his lifetime. a question about this example would be where exactly the parallelism
of body and mind takes place? is my body afraid or my mind? (is my body afraid
of my mind? or the other way around?) the intellect has the ability to project
certain things nearer or farer, it has the ability to have fantasies and this
is according to “freedom” or “liberty”. the mind is
aware of the affections of the body and that it is the mental, the intellect.
i would like to know more about your ideas on aesthetic terrorism.
looking forward to hearing from you both tomorrow!
30 July 2004, 1:17 pm, Amsterdam
yesterday was the same as the day before, but during breakfast we had
fresh orange juice (150 ml) instead of cucumber juice and during dinner
we had an indonesian
meal: 200 gram gado-gadu with tofu and green beans and white rice (3 tablespoons
when it is cooked); the rest was the same (drinks and crisps etc.).